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[Dec. 6th, 2005|04:48 pm] |
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| | appalled | ] |
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| | the sickening sound of her laughter | ] |
I despise people who talk about a family member who had attempted at committing suicide and laugh hysterically. What is so funny about this? I see absolutely nothing funny about suicide and ultimately death. But thats just me. Glares at the chick a few computers down from me. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|10:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wings of a butterfly -- HIM | ] |
I MISS WRESTLING! I miss seeing all of you guys! Stupid college taking up my time and stupid foot for being broken and making it difficult for me to get places.
Thank gods for the doc letting me start walking on it. No more of these damned crutches!
A registered for next semester
Photography, 3D Design, and Painting on Monday and wednesday. (long days I start at 9:00am and go to 5:25)
YAY art major!
but I only have one math class on tues. and thur.
once again no classes on Friday
WOOT WOOT!
Yay boredom waiting for a ride home!
heh |
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[Nov. 21st, 2005|04:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired AND hyper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Itsy bitsy spider -- complements of Jess | ] |
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| Oh the pain... |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|02:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Butterfly -- Tapping the Vein | ] |
*pouts*
I brokeded my foot...
around 3:30 this morning...
It hurts...
I find out thursday if I need surgery to put a pin in to help it heal...
I'm so exhausted from crutches, I've decided I have lost upper body strength over the years.
*laughter boils up*
I heard something crack in my foot as I ran into the fridge trying to regain my balance from tripping on the end of my jeans...
The fridge of all things!
But hey, at least they gave some goooood pain killers. |
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| YAY quizzes |
[Oct. 12th, 2005|11:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dance Macabre -- Cradle of Filth | ] |
MYSTIC BEAUTY - You are eccentric, enigmatic, and
intriguing. You keep to yourself and so no one
knows the real you. You prefer the solace and
quiet of your own company over big crowds of
people. You are highly intelligent but you do
everything your own way. You come off as quirky
or weird and most people don't understand you
at all. You are probably a little disorganized.
You probably also seem distant and dreamy but
that's because you're off in your own little
world.
What type of beauty do you possess? (20 questions + 7 results + pretty pics)
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[Oct. 4th, 2005|09:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired and weak | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rain -- Darkseed | ] |
My mom's car was stolen today, its the 4th anniversary of my fathers death, and I just know something else is going to happen this week....
There is a reason I have always hated rollercoasters!
Perhaps its a good thing that its a busy week at school... I wont have time to feel anything too much.... |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2005|05:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pretty good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | song #7 -- The Immortal Kiss of the Vampire | ] |
I figured it was about time to update my journal and post about
TPI!!!!!!!! For those who don’t know what TPI is or what it means, TPI stands for Ted Petty Invitational and it’s a two day tournament where all the best indie wrestlers come together.
This road trip was perhaps one of the BESTEST road trips I have been on. Ever! And yes, I have been on enough to know what I am talking about.
Power went out from the HUGE but amazingly awesome storm we had last Wednesday. So it was tough going through the packing process with nothing but a lantern and a few candles. Surprisingly I didn’t forget anything I had “thought” to bring.
Joellen aka Anthraxx picks me up around 8 am on Friday and we then go pick up Nate Bash find a gas station (which proved to be difficult because of the storm) and grab some grubbin Mc D’s breakfast. The drive to Chris’s was a quick one due to good conversation. (he he he you know how talking about Chris goes…) We get to Chris’s later than we had planned to but we switched to his car and head of for Hammond, Indiana. This drive was also not as bad as I was expecting, granted I have been on this particular ride before.
Wrestling was pretty good this night though not anywhere at the level of which last years TPI started out at. Dinner was had afterwards at this place that served what seemed to be everything. Nate and I agreed that the alfredo needed more seasoning though. We got to the hotel around 2:00 am. Me, Nate, Joellen, Chris, Cannon, Ryan, Kyle, and Wayne (it seems like a hell of a lot more seeing all of us listed like that) all pilled in and we didn’t get to sleep until 5 or 6. I would say the night was almost the equivalent to that of a slumber part. All I have to say is Kyle is awesome!
After roughly 4 hours of sleep we all head out Saturday to do stuff until wrestling starts. Chris and went to go see Corpse Bride and OMG it is SO FRICKEN GOOD!!!!!!!!! AND THE MUSIC!!!!!! I love Danny Elfmen!!!!
Wrestling was fricken amazing Saturday night! My head started to hurt half way through from hearing and seeing the head butts Cannon and Hero were delivering to each other.
After wrestling we take off to the next town that we were staying at in Wisconsin where taco bell was had. This room was much smaller than the first, but obviously, we survived.
Sunday we completed our drive to the third and final show of the weekend. The trip was very humorous! Lots of smart-alick signs and more butt that I cared to see. Once again Kyle was in a very creative mood.
Wrestling was sad though thanks to the ring crew, entertaining. It was in this small town in this small bar (though the bar workers were pretty cool). Estimated paid attendance was about 7 and wrestling didn’t start until about a 1 ½ - 2 hours after it was suppose to.
Back on the road to head home. The drive to Chris’ was once again, short. We trade cars and Nate, Joellen and I once again have good conversation the rest of the trip home. I must say, I am happy people are actually making a point to get to know me instead of branding me as Chris V’s little sister. It's why I love making these road trips with the wrestlers.
You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light. Image from: Stevee Postman.
http://www.stevee.com/
Sweet! |
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[Sep. 18th, 2005|12:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  strange | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sugarfalls -- Tapping the Vein | ] |
Today was short but lots of fun. I took in a Hockey game with Chris. Twas LOTS of fun. I love watching hockey. They play good music too! Lots and lots of rock both 80's and 90's. Oh and there were quite a few fights. It was pretty funny.
What You Really Think Of Your Friends
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Nicole is your soulmate. |
| You truly love Mmmm...blo...i Mean. |
| You consider Jess your true friend. |
| You know that Shaunah is always thinking of you. |
| You'll remember Todd F'n' Sparrow for the rest of your life. |
| You secretly think Mom is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times. |
| You secretly think that Dad is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker. |
| You secretly think that Tashia is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Tashia changes lovers faster than underwear. |
| You secretly think Bowman is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Bowman has a hidden internet romance. |
he he he he he he
Todd F'n' Sparrow |
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[Sep. 16th, 2005|11:38 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rocket Collecting -- Milla -- Underworld soundtrack | ] |
YAY! I woke up with a cold today! I have decided to blame it on Nicole! |
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| DAMNIDOCIOUS...its the new saying! Spread the word! |
[Sep. 14th, 2005|08:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bleed -- Tapping on the Vein | ] |
Well school is the only thing that has really been going on. School is school. I miss wrestling. Can't wait til TPI! ROAD TRIP! Though anthrax doesn't exactly seem to excited with the possibility of her picking me up on the way to Chris's. Who knows...
I was really down in a rut for a while there with all the stress from school which is a LOT when you have 2 art classes and you have only 1 to 2 days to buy almost 50 different things that the school store doesnt have. That on top of friends issues (though i cant complain about that since i choose to get myself involved in the first place. But what can I say I care) that has left me drained and burnt out of energy and emotion...and then there is the whole feeling like I am loosing my identity. Like everything you felt you were, the music that represented you or the books that became such a part of you all of a sudden was stuff that represented everyone else BUT you. Oh to have something of my own again. Something I can cherish. But hey, at least things are starting to get better.
Went to the doc's today and am going to start getting some physical therapy for my back pains! YAY! It has been getting so bad lately! Almost to the point of tears. And I almost never cry when I'm in pain. I just cant suck it up anymore. So 'tis good!
Thats all I really got....
Losers ---> http://www.godhatesfags.com/
(sorry if I have offended anyone who reads my journal)
Hilarious ---> http://www.ebaumsworld.com/baddayprank.html |
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| DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE! |
[Jul. 29th, 2005|12:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | In Death's Inbrace -- Dimmu Borgir | ] |
I have the bestest, most beautiful, sparkling schedule ever!!!!!!!!! And none of you can have it!
Monday and Wednesday:
10:00am-12:40pm Fundamentals of Color
2:00pm-3:40pm Algebra
Tuesday and Thursday:
9:30am-10:45am Anthropology
1:00pm-3:40pm Drawing II
Negatives:
I start earlier than i would like on tues. and thur.
Positives:
1. my classes are set out quite evenly
2. I have all the classes i want/need
3. I have my anthropology class that I wanted so badly. (What can I say, I watch documentaries on national geographic and the science channel and am entertained by them like a 12 year old to reality shows)
4. NO CLASS ON FRIDAY! 3 DAY WEEKEND WOOOHOO! (which works out nicely for my roadtrip to Hammond, Indiana on September 23 and 24) but 3 DAY WEEKEND! YES! YES! YES! YES!
This is almost as sweet as Gummy Bears! |
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| YAY! PICTURES |
[Jul. 11th, 2005|12:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Love and Hate Collide -- Def Leppard | ] |
We celebrated my niece Kiara's 7th birthday party on Sunday. We had all of my mother's grandchildren over, lots of fun was had. You can see the pictures here:
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/crimsonfon/album?.dir=/4cb3&urlhint=actn,ren:s,1:f,0
I also finally got a picture of my tattoo to put up for people to see. Forever Awakening has kind of been my motto. It came to me out of nowhere when i was around the age of 13 when life was starting to hand me some more difficult roads to travel. It simply means that life always has something to teach you where or not you choose to harbor that knowledge. I have been going down a long road of nothing but lessons whether it is just simply the adjustment from elementary to junior high and then on to high school and trying to find a place to fit in, to when my father past away and my mother and I had to learn how to live life with out him. My world is forever awakening.
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Anyway,
The AC isnt working in the house, it has been averaging to a whopping 85 degree's in my house for the past 3 days. Lets just say heat isnt my greatest friend...
I've decided that I'm going to stop believing anything people have to say or write to me that is really nice because it always kicks me in the face when I can be so easily ditched! Whether I am over reacting or not.
Oh and my body hates me, I've had a wave of pain in my abdomen once every 5 to 10 minutes since I last ate around 5:30 and 6:00pm. It sucks! |
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[Jul. 5th, 2005|01:29 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | lost | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Forever Yours -- Nightwish | ] |
For so long, I have been lonely, I know lonely. But I have never known alone. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hyper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bohemian Rhapsody -- Queen | ] |
DUDE! FIREWORKS WERE F'N AWESOME! HAPPY 4TH JULY! WOO! jess: woo! me: WOO! jess:woo! me: WOO! jess:woo! me: WOO!DUN DUN dun dadada DUN DUN dun dadaDA BOOYOW!
.....just a tiny bit hyper! Just a tiny...
WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! duna duna duna duna dun bim bim WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO! |
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[Jul. 1st, 2005|01:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  irritated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Redeemer -- Marilyn Manson | ] |
Black- You have a heartless effect on most and are
not afraid to kill those that stand in your
way. You have abilities that surpass most and
are not afraid to use them.
MUUAHAHAHA! Watch out bitches!!!
lol...strange how this so fits my mood right now... |
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| DUDE |
[Jun. 30th, 2005|01:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Helena -- My Chemical Romance | ] |
You guys have to check out these photos
Click here
Twas amazing!
MPW is no longer... and I’m sad and teary eyed every time I think about the fact that I will no longer hear "Lets Party" by Andrew W.K. echo upon those walls at the beginning of every show. To me, that song will always represent the excitement the rushes through my veins like a torpedo when the rifts to that song begin. No more Andrew coming downstairs and announcing for us fans, in which he does so very well! No more chanting FROSTY as his intro music hits and he comes down to set things right (yes I know you would argue with that Chris). No more silly dancing by the Junk Squad for me to shake my head at (mpw is the only place they really did it, or at least that I noticed). Hopefully all you wrestlers will continue to wrestle in other promo's so that I may continue to see your talent grow. Rob Page you are AWESOME! Thank you wrestlers, you have given me a way to look forward to every Sunday. Thank you to those guys, who took the time and acknowledged me as person more than Chris V's little sister, it made me feel special and welcomed. Thank you Shifty and Sheriff for starting such a loved tradition of mine and of so many other people I know. MPW will be missed greatly!
Viper, you are so fucking sad I almost feel sorry for you! However, almost just doenst cut it. Not even close!
Whats the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight
-My Chemical Romance
Helena
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| Camping camping camping |
[Jun. 25th, 2005|12:26 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sore | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Music for Vampires -- Cocteau Twins | ] |
Got back from camping about an hour ago. My mother and I have been gone since Sunday up in Hayward, WI. My sister Rose and her 2 kids joined us on Monday and left Wednesday, they kept us busy. We went into town on Wed. and I bought a new Unicorn for my collection (inwhich will be a collecters item soon being as it will be discontinued YAYY! or not yay?!) I actually went swimming, twice. I figured I bought a swimsuit, I might as well get my the use out of it. But hey, when the temperature hits the 90's and you have no air not even a mockary of a breeze, you tend to get desperate! I got some sun, however not nearly as much as my mother! All in all, it was a lot of fun. Other than the fact that after picking my dog Buddy up from Chris's my mom decided she was going to bite my head off all the way home. GRRR! So she !@%&* tired! Well SO AM I! Ughh! Sometimes I wish she were just more capable of doing things! I get so tired of doing things on my own after a while. I dont mind doing the cooking or most of the technical work, but DAMN!
I'm soooo looking forward to going to wrestling this weekend! SOMEBODY COME WITH ME! JESS? BOWMAN? Chris will be out of town! I will call you both!
You need friends.
You have been very lonely in your life and
people have, for one reason or another, stayed
away from you. The isolation is killing you
inside and all you want is to feel a connection
with somebody else. You now have little
self-esteem left inside and have dark thoughts
about life and relationships. However you still
have that crave of friends inside of you, even
if you won't admit that to yourself anymore.
And even if you do have a friend, you still
feel lonely because you have a hard time
letting people in since you have been isolated
so long.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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| A weekend in Review. (A Chris-ism you might say) I warn you its long! |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|01:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Capricorn (A Brand New Name) -- 30 Seconds to Mars | ] |
Day 1
Chris, V2, Arik Cannon and I headed down to NWA No-Limits in Muscatine, Iowa on Friday morning. It took about 5 hours down but the trip went really fast with all the good conversation such as music and wrestling (obviously, wrestlers and wrestling fans in the car, on top of that it’s a wrestling road trip). I get picked on a lot. Wrestling was great that night even though it was in the upper 80’s lower 90’s and probably even hotter inside the armory “god damn it, god damn it. What was especially amazing was the four-way between Cannon, V2 Ryan Cruz, Jason Strife and Chandler McClure. Cannon tied Strife up in the ropes and gave him chops upon chops. Strife being this small pale kid, he had instant marks left on his chest and back. You can see the picture here that I took with my phone after the show of Cannon’s handprint on Strife’s back. For more details click here: IWA Mid-South Wrestling Message Board
After wrestling, just Chris, V2 and I grabbed tacos and headed back to the hotel. Cannon was unable to join us there being as him and some of the other wrestlers got kicked out of the hotel we were staying at for being to loud and crazy in the pool area at 2am (this happened on a week or 2 ago).
Day 2
Pancakes for breakfast where in which I received a new nickname CJ standing for Chris Junior from V2 (I shake my fist “god damn it, god damn it”). We check and go pick up Arik from the Comfort Inn just down the street (where we waited 30 minutes for him to get his ass out the door “god damn it, god damn it”, but its all good.) We start on our trek across Illinois to Plymouth, Indian. About a 4 hour drive. I get picked on some more, but its all good. We stop at a Harley Davidson shop, of course, and I pick up a new hat and shirt to add to my growing collection. We got to the armory, which seems to be in the middle of no where. We helped set up chairs and helped with finishing up the ring, well… all of us except Cannon, because he’s lazy like that. Temperature was in the mid to upper 80’s and once again even warmer inside. Ryan (V2) wasn’t able to get booked so he sat with Chris and I and watched as Arik almost broke his collarbone again. Fortunately, this was not the case and he ended just having a sore shoulder. Find results here
If you want more details, Chris should have his results up within the next few days.
After wrestling we started our 8 hour drive back home to the twin cities. Are music selection started with Monsters of Rock. Lots of singing, head banging, air guitar and pillow drum playing. Ryan and I backseat moshed to “The Final Countdown”. Lots of fun! Day 3 starts somewhere in here. It was still quite a drive home. I got to hear both Chris’s AND Ryan’s entire wrestling history. Got a nice picture of the sunrise (you can see it here). I finally fell asleep to a ballad on the Guns n Roses Greatest hits CD. What can I say, it was like a lullaby as Chris so well put it. We finally arrive in Brooklyn Park around 8-8:30am. I got about 20 min. of sleep “god damn it, god damn it”, oh well… Drop Ryan and Arik off and head home.
I slept about7 hours and got up to go and watch yet another wrestling show. But hey, it was a big night at the MPW arena. Bowman was fortunate enough to join Chris, his friend Joe and I for a 32 man Battle Royal. Holy shit does that ring look gigantic with 32 men in it. This is where my involvement with this tournament comes in. Chase(sp?) Helms, a rookie of sorts, is being targeted through out almost the entire match. The wrestlers form lines to give Helms a chop after chop after chop. Only for him to be tied up in the ropes by Arik Cannon and receive chops back and forth between Cannon and another guy. Now on the road trip all the guys kept trying to talk me into maybe giving Chase Helms a chop myself, and I ended up agreeing to it. So Helms gets thrown over the top rope (which means he’s is out of the match for all of you who don’t know). He thinks all the beating is done. NOPE! Cannon roles out of the bottom of the ring, looks at me, pulls Helms arms back, and I give him a chop right in the center of his chest. However, it was not anywhere near as loud as I wanted it to be, and Cannon showed me how it was done. He licked his hand and WHACK! It had to have been one of loudest chops I have ever heard. Results will be up here or here
within the next few days if Chris gets a chance to put them up “god damn it, god damn it.” I am so ready to go another road trip!
To sum it all up:
3 shows
3 days
5 states
Just under 1300 miles
One hell of a time and
Some great memories! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|10:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | yay! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Squirrley Wrath! | ] |
Your connection with darkness is through your
interest in vampires. Theese occult beings
fascinates you. Their lives are just something
you would kill for, and if you would have the
opportunity to be sired, you would. Living a
mortal kind of life is just so ordinary and
boring. You aren't necessarly evil just because
of this interest/obsession, you just can
connect with them and their lifestyles. Though
people have a hard time understanding this and
chances are you're a social outcast. Perhaps
you hate your life and therefor developed this
interest, to escape reality.
What is your connection with darkness? (pics)
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No really? I didnt know that....I swear! :P |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 30th, 2005|12:12 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Heaven is an Orgasm -- Lords of Acid | ] |
For some things, all I have to say is gurrr! Otherwise, wrestling was a lot of fun tonight. Some good matches some not so good. But thats how it usually goes. After party was fun as usual. Lots of people came because of the holiday! Chris, Tash and I sat with Joey (Joey E.) and Brandon (Kid Krazy) and we had some good conversation. It was a pretty mellow layed back weekend for the most part... I normally wouldnt post ramblings such as this, but im in avoid people mode and this is a good way to avoid people. I think its to overload on the socializing tonight. And hey, sometimes its nice to only be with yourself... |
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